A Decade of Death

2009-10-23T22:29:00.000-07:00

Had two consecutive nights dreaming about you,and seeing you yesterday made me even happier. (:

2009-10-05T07:31:00.000-07:00

MY DUMB WIFE IS SO SELFISH :mad:

I GO DIVORCE HER AND MARRY THAT ZEHZEH INSTEAD.HMMPH.

张惠妹 - 分生

2009-10-01T05:14:00.000-07:00

张惠妹 - 分生  作词：姚若龙 / 作曲：郑楠  一个我像不会累一直往前 一个我动弹不得伤心欲绝 我不确定 几个我 住在心里面 偶尔像敌人 偶尔像姐妹  一个我在网路上朋友一堆 一个我在房间里独自面对 灰色的音乐 塞满黑夜 High的像麻醉 好让翻搅的胃 安静一点 忘了全世界  分裂前的热泪 分裂后的冷眼 越爱谁 越防备 像只脆弱的刺猬 分裂中的心碎 分裂后的假面 不快乐 不伤悲 情绪埋藏成了地雷 等待爆裂  一个我相信用心会被感觉 一个我大喊真心会被欺骗 开始的热烈 不停奉献 后来剩决裂 谎言吞噬了心 带来刺痛 撕裂的蜕变  分裂前的热泪 分裂后的冷眼 越爱谁 越防备 像只脆弱的刺猬 分裂中的心碎 分裂后的假面 不快乐 不伤悲 情绪埋藏成了地雷 等待爆裂   分裂前的热泪 分裂后的冷眼 越爱谁 越防备 像只脆弱的刺猬 分裂中的心碎 分裂后的假面 不快乐 不伤悲 情绪埋藏成了地雷 等待爆裂

2009-09-22T09:41:00.000-07:00

Apparently,i'm not in the mood for anything.You should jolly well know why.Don't act like you dunno at all.

2009-09-21T08:34:00.000-07:00

Thought for quite awhile,and given her the answer.Hopefully that is the correct answer.Is there a right or wrong answer in the first place?I dunno,it's really for others to decide whether i'm doing the right thing.I only know that this is what i should do,based on my personal judgment.

2009-09-08T00:20:00.000-07:00

I know the previous post was kinda harsh,as i was overwhelmed with emotions,due to your abrupt withdrawl from the marriage.

I admit,during these period of time,i had been a self-indulged moron who kept trying to make his own decisions.You,on the other hand had given in relentlessly.I'm sorry for that.

And as for the sudden withdrawl from the marriage,i reckon there is a reason behind it.Hope you'll tell me about it when you see this post.

Marriage

2009-09-07T01:53:00.000-07:00

This is so bad,so bad,so bad.

She said yes to our marriage,and yet now she told me she wanted to call off the marriage.

Details: i proposed to her on XX/XX/09,with her duly saying yes.So we arranged for the marriage to be on the last day of this year (31st Dec).We haven't gone through MoM and haven't sent out our invitation letters yet,as we are still making minor preparations here and there.We are halfway done with our wedding photos.Fuck,i really want to tear up those photos,burn them all.

I do not want to see your face again.

2009-08-23T04:56:00.000-07:00

I've been trying to drawing a perfect circle for hours (without the aid of an instrument) and countless numbers of attempts tell me that it is of no use.I got tired,and set down my pen.

Yes,you should know what i mean.

Review on Taake's Hordaland Doedskvad.

2009-08-19T23:30:00.000-07:00

Long since i'd written the last review,so here's one right in all your fuck-faces out there :D

Tracklist:

1.	Hordaland Doedskvad Part I	07:43	[view lyrics]
2.	Hordaland Doedskvad Part II	06:02	[view lyrics]
3.	Hordaland Doedskvad Part III	06:16	[view lyrics]
4.	Hordaland Doedskvad Part IV	08:16	[view lyrics]
5.	Hordaland Doedskvad Part V	06:03	[view lyrics]
6.	Hordaland Doedskvad Part VI	07:17
7.	Hordaland Doedskvad Part VII	09:00	[view lyrics]
Total playing time		50:37

Genre: Black Metal

Review:

If you have never listened to Taake,this is one album that you have to pick up in your local CD store.(Downloading not reccomended,support the original!)

This album is not your typical black metal album.Taake is never known to play bullshit.The album takes you through a 50-minute journey through the different stages of metal.

Without further ado,i shalt go on to the songs themselves.

The songs played,like i've mentioned,includes 0% of the nonsense you see in recent works of Taake.There is no exact genre to label this album,although Taake plays mainly black metal.It includes influences of Viking metal and folk metal (not another cheap Falkenbach ripoff,i swear)

In general,all the seven songs are played in a typical style:kicks off with some headbanging riffs,goes into small breakdowns (insert soloes),goes into a majestic bridge and ends off well.Yes,it sounds as though it's like another Darkthrone's Transilvanian Hunger,but no,they don't play the same chords for every damn song.Creativity is what makes this album stand out from the other black metal albums.

Like most other black metal bands,the vocals are purely shrieks of pain,occasionally with some shouts here and there (for example,in Hordalands Doedskvad I,there are chants of "hey",setting listeners into a fit of headbanging.No surprise if anyone raises their fists in the air while listening to the songs).

For guitars,they are rather creative,with some good riffs here and there throughout the album.No boring moments,by the way.Bass guitars are not that audible sometimes,but they blend in rather well.

The drums go well along with the songs as well.Even though it's a one-man band,we don't hear drum machines in any part of the album.It isn't that creative,but you have to give credit to the man himself for making an effort to give a well-rounded performance.

All in all,this album is reccomended,most especially if you are looking for some good black/Viking metal,or you are looking for something that is labeled "Awesome".Advice:get something to clean all your earwax at the end of the listen.

Recommended tracks: Part 1,2,3 and 7.

Ratings: 95/100

Another "Picture This" Post.

2009-08-17T06:58:00.000-07:00

Here's the scenario:

You are to compete in a race.This race is hundred metres.Short distance,yes,but imagine the entire stadium is submerged with water.That won't make things easy for you isn't it?

Before you even start running,you can already feel all the currents working against you,even when nothing is causing the currents to grow.You try to make a few paces.You could barely run,yet you choose to attempt it somehow or another,given your curiosity and part of your foolishness.You haven't made it to the 10metre mark and your muscles and lungs are already screaming in protest.Some foolish ones persist.I am one of those.This had only resulted in me suffering under the lack of oxygen.

That's why i'm now forcing myself up to the surface of the water,catching my breath.No way am i going to go back into the water.

Fair is Foul and Foul is Fair.

2009-08-09T18:59:00.000-07:00

Picture this:You are in a baseball match.You get ready for the strike.The first strike,you miss it.In your head,you say,"strike one",i'd just have to try again the next time.But the umpire calls it a strike out (far-fetched i know,just go along with this scenario).Ridiculous right?But,my friend,you have no say in what's fair in the real world out there.In the real world,people don't give you the second and third strikes.Well,at least i learnt it the hard way.

I have no say in it,the ump does.This match ended for me earlier than usual.

2009-08-09T08:29:00.000-07:00

Just one day after i've made up my mind,i'm already faltering in my thoughts simply because of small events.Amazing.

2009-08-08T07:21:00.000-07:00

Thought it through already,even if it takes me my life,i will dig every speck of dust until i claim the gem.

2009-08-07T07:41:00.000-07:00

Picture this:

You are on a treasure hunt.You have no maps,no compass and no fucking clue where the hell this treasure is.The only thing you are sure of,is that this treasure is what you are willing to die for,and that if you don't start hunting for it,others will.

So you start digging at places where you think it will most probably turn out to be buried at.You failed to find it,yet you find yourself having more reasons to find this gem,thinking it to be worthy for the time,blood,sweat and tears shed for it.

You start digging at other places.You failed,again.You start to get a little uncomfortable,but you believe that you will find it no matter what.So you continue digging.

As time goes by,your uncomfortability starts to turn into worriness.You start to think,am i to give up hunting for this gem,or am i to work at it until i find my gem at last.

Yes,you guessed it right,i'm currently in this situation now.So my question to myself is,am i to follow blind faith and wait until she has a proper answer,or am i to give it up and stop appearing in her life, and stop making her life a misery?

2009-08-05T06:58:00.000-07:00

This is the first time in my 18 years of living that i'm saying this "i'm defeated".

I have always been the confident person,no matter how major the setbacks that befall on me.Yes,i may whine a little sometimes,but still i'd have confidence that tomorrow will be better.

However,this time round,i simply have no confidence in myself.So many fears i have at the moment,and nothing is helping to situation at all.Quote an example:i don't even have the confidence to talk to you,even a casual chat,given the fear that you will still behave the way you do in the recent days-acting weird.Yes you do,just that i don't want to elaborate on it.

I'm kind of dreading Saturday,even though the little eeden in me is dying to see you.

I don't even know how to phrase the whole situation in my private blog,so people who can access that blog,don't expect to see a follow-up on this post.

2009-08-04T06:42:00.000-07:00

S=Sarah???HAHAHAHA happy guessing,whoever did so :)

If you are keen on CSI-ing my stuff,try guessing who is lola zeh zeh then :D

2009-08-01T22:52:00.001-07:00

Here i am feeling stressed over something,another source of stress appears.Goddamnit.

2009-08-01T08:25:00.001-07:00

Going to set up a new blog soon,a private one,so that i can say things that are left unsaid.People who are interested to read,do pm me.Cos if i don't do so,i'm afraid what i said in my second last post in my previous blog will come true.

2009-08-01T08:16:00.000-07:00

I have no say in it at all.Sorry for the whines recently.Apparently,i was too concerned with "the happiness and woes of eeden" rather than putting myself in your shoes.

2009-07-31T21:37:00.000-07:00

Whenever i am down,the first part of the therapy would be listening to some depressive black metal and drowning myself in the emotions of solitude.I'm currently on the second part,where i'm playing songs that make you headbang to.Seems my therapy consists mainly of black metal eh?

Cold Void.

2009-07-31T04:31:00.001-07:00

This song represents well of my current mood:

Lyrics:

The deadly way out reveals the truest cruelty
and isolates me from reality,
but I'm asking myself: what is reality: a dream?
Everytime I reach this point, I remember dreams that will never be reality.
Taking a bath in razors, entices me as a solution for my endless grief.

The decision draws nearer.

On a transparent way, I float much more away, without any sight.
Am I blind, or am I still alive?
And once again, I only sense the purest absence.
A wound like this, cannot be healed anymore.

I will decide, for the last time.

The courage I've lost long ago - for I'll never feel happiness anew.
In emotions of solitude, the non-presence is my home.my grave.
When the pulse no longer throbs and the last drop of life left my veins,
I become forever paralysed, by this ultimate.Cold Void.

Something to describe for the entire month.To quote from myself,it is not an action,it is an emotion.

Nostalgia.Memoirs of the Past.

2009-07-31T03:19:00.000-07:00

Today,an ex schoolmate of mine asked whether i'd be going back to sec sch this sept.It's rather tough to decide,given what happened two years ago and then last year.It was nostalgia all over,and everytime when i reach the month of sept i will seem to remember this.

2009-07-30T17:08:00.001-07:00

To S:

I'm really sorry for last night,i had been a selfish brat and only cared for my feelings and not yours.Apparently,i did not consider the fact that you needed more time.I,on the other hand,was rather rash in my actions,and hence became rather demanding in my requests,asking you that question every now and then.I guess you want to take things slowly,so i respect your decision (:I will continue to wait nonetheless,as long as it doesn't bother you at all.If possible, i hope your attendance for next sat will still be a tbc.Once again,my sincere apologies.

2009-07-30T07:35:00.000-07:00

Blogging while waiting for the goddamned internet to work.

@ the previous post,it can be treated as redudant now,since it's more or less resolved.

And speaking of the future,i'm not sure whether i am gonna continue with this.If the next sat is a "no",i think i should just give it up.Obviously,she is hiding from you.A large portion of me wants to give up already.

2009-07-28T17:17:00.000-07:00

In normal circumstances,i won't even give a flying fuck about rants people have towards me.But because of the person and the comments made,i have no choice but to retort a little.

Apparently,you don't like my personality and the way i treat her.That's fine,i can't make you think otherwise.But,do you have the need to treat everything i say,even a random suggestion,with hostility?What the fuck.I don't even have any grudges against you,so why would i insult someone that you so-called have a crush on?I don't even care about your love life at all,thank you very much.I posted in your c-box as a "act-funny" comment,and if you're not damned with that,too bad.Offered solution:delete that post if you want,and move on with life.Kthxbye.

Edit:What the fuck."your first post" meant the post that you were talking about the guy/girl who insulted you.Take a look at the time that i posted my comment in your cbox before posting a rant.And @my previous post,i meant a friend of mine.Thanks for proving to me once again that people judge things without finding out the truth.Now fuck off my site. =D

I will NEVER ever be jealous of anyone who's involved in a band,cos i know darn well i ain't got the talent or the perserverence to be a musician.Tatts and piercing are none of my concern.

2009-07-28T04:47:00.000-07:00

It seems that somebody out there is trying to cut off all ties with me.Well,i can't help but say i expected it a long time ago.I was prepared for this to happen,given my past experiences.And sure as hell,it happened again.F-a-n-t-a-s-t-i-c.Or to adopt David Walliams' slip of the tongue during the Big Fat Quiz of the Year 2006,"congratu-welldone".

I shan't go on to any disputes we have,as this will get us nowhere.So i shall just make this a small rant of mine and let it go.So should you.

As for the previous post being deleted,it was more or less because i was conveying a message to S,she has read and acknowledged.Though i expected her to respond the way she did yesterday,i couldn't help it but feel a little disappointed.But oh well,as long as it is not a "no",it means there is still tomorrow. (: Delusional me,some may think,but if you look from my perspective,it's rather hard to tell her mind.

Girls are rather complicated creatures,i finally realised.Congratu-welldone again.Heh.

2009-07-25T21:30:00.000-07:00

Something i read on facebook today and found it applicable for a certain someone.Hope this person might visit this blog by chance :S

"By hanging onto a previous relationship, how do you expect to move onto a new one? No new bf/gf could possibly hold a candle to your previous one, in your mind, at least. But the truth is, there's a reason why you two broke up and it's probably for the best. It's time for you to keep your past in the past if you have any chance of building a future with someone else."

New Beginning?

2009-07-21T17:54:00.000-07:00

Sorry for being off air for so darn long.Too lazy to blog.

This is just to inform you people that i'm currently labeled as single yet unavailable. (: yes,i've just broken up with her.I don't regret being together with her one single bit,and had we still shared the same feelings towards each other,i'm sure we'd still be together,but alas,fate says no.I don't feel sad,or angry.I feel gratified to have a good girlfriend like her,even though we had ended our short term of relationship.I hope she will return the smile.

Now that i'm done saying my gratitude,now it's time to move on in life.New phase in life,new challenges ahead.A strong will is essential in order to survive in this reality.Moving ahead...

Death of a Fallen Star.

2009-06-25T20:31:00.000-07:00

Woke up this morning to hear from my father that Michael Jackson has passed away.Of course,i didn't believe what i heard,and went online straight to verify this piece of news.And as i was auto-signed into MSN,the news flashed up in front of me.I was in a state of shock.

Michael Jackson,our King of Pop passed away with a heart attack?

Seriously,i don't even know what to say.

He was my favorite singer when i was young,so much so that you can consider him as my idol.I made my father buy all the VCDs and LDs that feature MJ's MTVs,and i would simply dance along to the songs.He was a great dancer,and a great singer as well.I don't remember finding a single track or music video boring.He was that electrifying.

Even though i am not as an avid fan of him in the recent years,i still hold utmost respect towards him.He is,perhaps,one of the greatest performers i've ever seen.

So thank you MJ for all the great vids and songs.You'll be duly missed.Rest in Peace,King of Pop!

The Sponge and the Stress Ball.

2009-06-24T19:49:00.000-07:00

A sponge is really interesting.It reflects some of our personalities well.

Firstly,it absorbs water no matter what.As long as it is in contact with water,it will absorb the most of the water.There will be some occasions where the capacity is maxed-out,such that droplets will drip.It will still take in water,while leaking out some of the water at the same time.Sponges will only release a greater amount of water when squeezed.This is the very same as us humans.We take in the anger no matter what,and we only let out some of our frustrations when we have reached our maximum.Like the sponge,we release our angst only when poked.But the amount of anger released is not the full of it,there will still be some anger left in us,just like the sponge with water remaining in it even after squeezing.

To be honest i don't even understand what i'm talking about.

Whatever.From now on sponges will evolve into stress balls.Stress balls are another interesting lot.They allow all forms of squeezing,jabs,sometimes even stabs.But they will serve their purpose ultimately-to help the user to let out his/her frustrations on it.I will be a stress ball with a smilie drawn (with a marker) across it.The smile will be plastered on my face,even when squeezed,or stabbed.Yes,the smile will fade sometime,but the purpose is served.

If only i understand my own mind.Been thinking about this two objects ever since.

Welcome to the End.

2009-06-22T20:27:00.000-07:00

Today will be a special day for me.You know why?It will be the awakening of my past self.

Today is a special day.We hide behind our masks and conceal our thoughts.Deep down inside we want to tear at each others' throats but we simply give a false smile,giving the enemy a false sense that we are trying to be friendly.

Today is a special day.We will be like players at the table,each giving his best to portray the perfect poker face.No one has the winning hand.It requires pure skill and determination of the mind.

Today is a special day.I will behave the same way as how people dislike me to be.

Today is a special day.I do not care about any comments you have to say.

Today,today,today.What a wondrous day.

Work.

2009-06-14T21:58:00.000-07:00

Was working at the PC Show these few days,working for Harvey Norman selling Macbook. :D

My partners are quite friendly,and of course,rather competitive.Who doesn't.Every man for himself in the end of the day.No choice.But ah well,at least we are ok with each other.

Working environment?Not bad,opposite our booth there are showgirls.Only one showgirl is decent looking,my type btw :P They were like dancing along to the music they were playing.Maybe imma post the song up.Playing it like million times already.Heh.

Sales was ok.I expected that i won't make super lot of sales,given that my knowledge on Mac is rather poor.

All in all it was worthwhile,though tiring.

Rants.

2009-06-10T00:50:00.000-07:00

Disputes after disputes.It turns my stomach over, sickens me to the core.And it always has to be over trivial matters.And please, if you feel so wronged, don’t go saying that it’s your fault when deep inside you don’t feel so.It sickens me even more when I see that.I know you’re doing this to avoid another argument, but hell, it’s obvious you feel wronged and begrudged.I’m not going to step out of my house today AT ALL, unless it’s for a cause like going down to play basketball.And I’d rather you to have fun on Friday, and don’t come visiting me at work at all.Oh and have fun chatting with you-know-who.Kthxbye.

It seems to me that it's a habit that our problems are always made known to others,when i don't even talk about it to anyone,nor explain it in details in the blog.

Current listen: Bulimiarexia by Eths. Candice!!!

Pool+Makan Outing.

2009-06-06T22:06:00.001-07:00

Sorry for being away for quite awhile (at least,according to me.Lol.).

Went out with Tiny,Asharae,93'guy and her to Somerset to catch a movie initially,only to find that there are no movies to our liking.Went down to Plaza Sing,the same situation occured.Hence we settled down at Park Lane to play pool.

Over there,i saw quite a number of metalheads,and i remembered with a pang that it was the Ressurection gig,which is held in Gossip Bar.Fuck,i should've gone there.You could see all the metalheads,clad with jackets with patches,some wearing boots.All of them wore their favorite metal band t-shirts proudly.Goddamnit.I felt like approaching them and show them the Devil's Horns!

On the pretence of going to the toilet,i went to take a sneak peek at what's going on inside the bar.Apparently Draconis Infernum was on stage (or so i guess),so basically you can hear the double bass pedalling at work even standing at MacDonalds.Man the atmosphere was awesome.

Back to the outing.So we were playing pool,with Tiny acting as some deity,playing with one leg hanging in the air.Fucking hilarious.I kinda lost touch,like alot.Meh. ):

Then we went to play arcade for awhile,where Alezec joined us.Went to eat chicken rice,slacked at some ulu shopping center while waiting for Seoti to arrive.Alezec was showing us some magic tricks when the friendly security guard came over and stopped us.Walao eh.You're paid to ensure safety and security of the shopping center,not to reign over people's lives,moron.Ah well.

Seoti arrived and we went to eat some tao huay.Joked around for awhile,with Tiny trying to eat seoti's tofu.Haha!

Then we separated,with me,93 and Alezec cabbing to her place to see her dog,and Tiny and the others going home.Her dog is,well,not the kind that i like.I love cats more,remember?Haha.

OHYEA.The best part of this outing is MR Black-Face is not here! (:

Regarding the previous post.

2009-05-30T21:24:00.000-07:00

On the medical aid thing,it's talking about my ear,toopid people.I am not suffering from depression.Zomgwtfbbq hahahaha.Cos i get bus-sick,sea-sick,whatever-sick very easily due to some problems of the ear.I CAN HEAR,GODDAMNIT.Haha.It's just something to do with pressure,i donno how to explain also.Lol.

Movie outing.

2009-05-30T08:49:00.000-07:00

Went out with kiki and the rest to PS today to catch the movie Night at the Museum 2.

I reached there the earliest,cos i thought they are the early kind of people,so i chiong-ed there to find out that i was the only one who has already reached.Heh.Went up to the arcade to look at people playing Maximum Tune.

So there are these kids playing,and a girl my age went to challenge them.Apparently she was not bad at driving,so these kids played rather dirty,where they kept blocking her.Her boyfriend couldn't stand it and helped out,successfully blocking the kids instead.The scene was rather heated,as they were like smashing the gears.Ah well,the excitement was there,everyone standing watching half anticipated a fight to go on,me included.Haha.

Then met kiki to buy tickets for the rest,thereafter we waited for the rest to arrive.First came dai,then sunnie and seoti.Sunnie and seoti both overslept.HAHA.

Slacked for awhile at Burger King,then went up to watch the movie.

The movie wasn't as hilarious as expected,but a certain someone beside me was laughing throughout *wink wink*.More of a Disney comedy,in my opinion.

Walked around contemplating what to eat,and Seoti got us out of Long John Silvers then in the end never join us for dinner.Hahahaha.Finally we settled down at Just Acia then departed for home.

Again,it's rather fun going out with the forum people (:

And i'm so broke ))):

Old madness that haunt.

2009-05-29T20:13:00.000-07:00

It's coming back yet again.Yes,the condition is worsening.

P.S. Thanks to those who know of my condition and yet stood by my side,being caring and concerning people.I do not wish to waste money to seek an aid that does not help much.As they say,it will only stablise the situation,it's not a cure-all after all. :/

If i appear shut down to you people,just leave me alone for awhile.

Current Listen:The Trooper by Iron Maiden (from Death on the Road,live in Dortmund).

Gia-Gia Outing

2009-05-22T05:56:00.000-07:00

Went on yet another outing yesterday.

First,i went gyming with Carnegie and the rest,then went for a dip in the jacuzzi and went into the sauna.Alex joined us for the jacuzzi+sauna,and he's become more gay than ever.Sheesh.Apparently he was having some hot sex with Carnegie at the jacuzzi while the rest of us are still in the sauna room.Just pulling your leg :P

Bathed then went back to BizIT Library to use the computers,since she texted me,saying that she couldn't meet so early,cos she's out with someone who has a crush on her,or so she says.Whatever.Ok,played MvC (Marvel VS Capcom) with Alex for awhile then went off to Peninsula to walk around before meeting her.

Saw the person who has a crush on her,and i was like,ZOMGWTFBBQ.Ya.Shan't go into the details.Then we left for Esplanade,tmm-ed for awhile up there,thereafter going to Subway to makan.

Ordered a footlong,and apparently i'm not a good eater,so i merely ate half of it and dumped the rest away.The butter cookie was left uneaten also.Heh.

Went to Suntec to walk around,then sent her home,despite her protests.Haha.E-U-N-O-S (:

So today,again,i asked myself a few questions,and she has answered quite a few indirectly. :)

Best FMA Lecture.

2009-05-18T02:56:00.000-07:00

Yes,this is the first time i'm raving over a lecture.It was so darn funny.

Went to lecture today with some form of dread,apparently she doesn't wanna meet today until thurs.I'm fine with it.

Ah well,serious stuff aside.

I went into the lecture hall with the rest and we spotted some empty seats in the middle and the back.As a born slacker,i chose the back seats so that it would be more convenient in case i wanna chat with someone when i'm bored.

So,as lesson commenced,i noticed that the middle seats are still vacant,and it seemed that quite a number of people had their focus on the middle seats.Curiosity led me to looking around,where i saw some cheena-looking guy swaying in his seat.I thought,fine,he's probably tired or bored,until he started moaning.MOANING.I was like wtf and went on observing the guy until i found out that he was drunk.

Reasons?One:he's speaking a few decibels above the normal level.Two:he's swaying about throughout the lecture.Three:a friend beside him was red in the face.Four:he'd dropped his stuff countlessly and the way he picked it up tells it all.

So his antics went unnoticed by us,who were giggling and laughing at his actions.The lecturer thought he was simply acting funny,so he chose to ignore all these.The innocent who came in later chose to sit there,only to be warned by us that there is a drunkard sitting over there.So they avoided him like the plague,sitting as far as possible.Understandable,in my opinion.Then,he "stabbed" his own hand with his pen and screamed in pain.ZOMGWTFBBQ.I was almost howling with laughter.

He went on like this for quite awhile,bringing some good entertainment to us at the same time,until he started to vomit.Fuck,it stank as hell.He even vomitted his lunch out (sorry to those who are eating now).Strands of noodles were seen on the floor.No jokes.It was a disgusting scene,all right,but still it was fucking hilarious.

So the lecturer went out to get help,and by help it meant the Director of SB.The whole lecture hall were like "orh hor",all of us gloating at this dude.Poor guy.Haha.They got him out,and lesson went on as usual,but the lecture hall were all discussing this matter.What a classic.Apparently no one was truly interested in what the lecturer had said after the "incident" had occured.HAHA.

When lecture ended,we saw the dude lying on the seat outside,with quite a number of his classmates attending to him.He was knocked out,i suppose.They got a cab for him and sent him off after awhile.It took three guys to carry him out,i observed.Heh.

Reason for him being drunk?Heard from people from his class that they went to the clubhouse to drink vodka during their five-hour break.Obviously this dude wasn't a drinker,eventually landing to this state.Rofl.Serves you right,moron.

By far this is the most interesting FMA lecture i've ever attended,not because of the lesson,but because of the joke.

Stayover@Carnegie's

2009-05-15T11:56:00.000-07:00

Current location:Carnegie's place.

Apparently i'm awake and bored,hence decided to blog a little.

Had quite a long school day today,with so many lectures and a super long break in between.Felt as though i'd wasted my time making an effort to attend school just for the sake of doing it.Heh.

Met Gary,Alex,Carnegie and gang to have dinner at Bukit Timah,thereafter setting off to his place to get drunk.(ok,i so did not drink.reasons stated in next few paragraphs)

Started off with gin.Gosh,i didn't like it.Not a single bit,no matter what i mixed it with.It just tastes weird to me.So i watched Red Cliff with Yujian and KC,while the others were drinking quite a lot.Alex was being his usual,turning red very quickly after drinking a little,where he got high and became a little...suggestive in his actions?HAHA.Didn't really bother about him,i was relaxing on the massage chair.

Sent our drunkard Alex to the bus stop,then fetched James to Carnegie's place.Called my gf to have a little chat,where i could already sense that she is very tired and yet making an effort to stay awake just to talk to me.Thanks ma cherie :) Said something that i'm still not accustomed to saying (apparently she is the first person i said this to,so you bet,it took me quite a lot just to say it).Bet she didn't hear it clearly.Heh.Second time in this week that i said it verbally.So ended the phone call,with her dead-tired.Sorry for bothering you in the middle of the night aye?

Went back and saw James already drinking quite a lot,and we have a merlion at work (NOT ME!!!),where he took quite a few trips to the toilet.Now it smells of satay bee hoon.Oops.

Opened up the bottle of vodka and we played dai dee,drank a bit more and then i went to bathe.

Now,i am the only one upstairs,with the rest all asleep.I'm not one who sleeps when it's supposed to be an overnight stay.

Clocking in at 3:10 am,Saturday,May 16. :)

Sentosa Outing.

2009-05-10T01:19:00.000-07:00

Went with the sgf people to sentosa yesterday,had lots of fun over there.

Met them at Macs for breakfast at Vivo,where i took quite a while to be more awake and start to talk to them.Apparently i do not know anyone of them except for a few.Heh.

Made our way down to Siloso beach and we played beach volleyball there.I kinda picked up how to serve the ball,and got the hang of it.Yay. :D Most of us aren't familiar with playing volleyball,so as expected,we created lots of humor while playing.Hahahaha.And one good thing about playing with them is:you can slack sometimes and be on the lookout for girls. *blushes* saw a few. :P

Went to dip in the water,and the rest were like volunteering to teach me how to swim,which i declined.Seems that i still got bit of phobia.Ah well.Had fun watching them carrying each other and we played monkey.

Then we played captains ball,dog and bone,and touch rugby,where we had a crazy time yet again.It's really interesting that i could had so much fun even with people whom i've met only for the first time ever.Haha.

Thereafter we went for another dip,then showered and left for Vivo to have dinner at Food Republic,where i practically had to snatch food,thanks to a certain someone.HAHA!Wolfed down quite a lot of food also.And now i am always looking for food to eat,thanks to that someone.Rofl.

Bus-ed down to Bugis to have Ah Chew,but seeing that the place is packed,we decided to go the Iluma place to slack and play dai di there.

Overall,i had a great time with them,though now my neck hurts like mad,and both my face and neck are like very,very red.

Gave her her quiz,and some questions could be a little...sensitive?Thanks to Setter C,and a bit of evil in me.Ya.

2009-05-04T18:33:00.000-07:00

Had a talk with a good friend yesterday.She was being understanding,giving me certain well-phrased advices.Even though she claims that she does not know exactly what i have in mind,but her advice was more than useful for me.

Conscience and desire,i have to choose one.Wait till i've spoken to one or two more people.

2009-04-30T08:23:00.000-07:00

Oh yea.Forgot to mention,i saw that girl on the train yesterday,the second time in two months' time.She looks as good as ever.No worries i have no interest in her.Just thinking that she is really pretty. (: And good to hear that she and her boyfriend are doing well.

And a few moments ago,i talked to an old friend (ok not exactly that old,but i haven't talked to her for a looooong time).Apparently,i still owe her a meal (cos of a bet both of us made) and we were talking cock all over.Then she called me to chit chat,cos she'd thought that i'm having depression.Haha.You only believe what you see,sucka :P Laughed throughout the phone call,so consequently her "therapy" is working.Thanks yo (i know you aren't reading this,i didn't send you my bloglink.mwahahaha.).And be assured that i will DO treat you a meal,when i'm NOT broke :P

Current listen:Epitaphe by Nilfheim

2009-04-30T04:23:00.000-07:00

So now i'm not able to understand the things she say due to the way she phrases her words. :S

Overwhelmed.

2009-04-28T02:10:00.001-07:00

Apparently,i thought i knew her very well,but...fuck it.

Totally at a loss now,a state of disquiet.

I seriously don't know what i want/what she thinks.Seems that the nickname her bestie has christened me says best.

TMM Outing.

2009-04-27T07:46:00.001-07:00

The title says everything. :D

Went out with her to Queensway to get her studs for her new piercing (where she then removed the piercing later in the night).

Then bus-ed down to Penin to visit Hell's Labyrinth,where it is not opened!!!Ah well,went to Suntec and later Esplanade to tmm.Obviously,i shan't disclose the full details as there may be kids reading this.

Then we were talking,and finally,i was being most like my true self.*ahem,drunkard*Well,something happened i'll make sure it remains a secret btw me and her.

Then we went home,with my hands and palms full of writings.Heh.Showed them to my mum and sis,apparently they are ok with the existence of her.So yay!Though i should not neglect my studies at the same time. :P

All in all,it was a fantastic,or rather,most truthful outing.Thanks a lot for the time together,ma cherie.Je t'aime. :)

An Assurance.

2009-04-22T05:06:00.000-07:00

To ma cherie:

I know i hadn't been myself recently,with no mood to be talking to you.Rest assured that i hold nothing against you,it was simply the fact that my poor results leading to my allocation to the new class has distressed me more than ever,with school reopening.I know i was being a selfish ass,so my deepest apologies.

And for your "paranoid" (as you claimed),rest assured no one is fooling around,this is no April the 1st.No one shouting "Gotcha!Sucka!".Never.Be affirmative that this is all happening.

For the 31th time, je t'aime ma cherie :)

2009-04-21T04:02:00.000-07:00

I dunno who is more upset these days,you or me.

Not in a mood to talk.

First Day of School.

2009-04-20T01:54:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 6 today,apparently i chose this time cos i am fully aware of how slow i am.Haha.

The class,was,well kind of not my type,but i think as time goes by we'd get along quite ok.

Obviously,i'm not in a mood to blog,and note the deliberate leaving out of certain events.

Steamboat Outing.

2009-04-18T20:24:00.001-07:00

Went out with Gary and Carnegie yesterday (Sat) to watch Fast and Furious 4 and to have steamboat.

Apparently,now my hair is more acceptable,according to them.Finally i won't get teased at for my ridiculous hairstyle.Yay.Played arcade for a while after buying the tickets,where we haven't spent all the money in the card yet,given that the movie was about to show.

FaF4 is much better than Tokyo Drift,with a better stroyline and a better cast,with Vin Diesel being the "big man" and all.It's really interesting to see drag races taking place on "open roads",which builds up the excitement of the racing fever.A good watch,in my opinion.

Then walked over to look for pencil case,apparently Carnegie needs one,given that he hasn't been using one since last year.Finally he sees the light.Zomg lame line.K.

Took bus down to Tiong Bahru and had steamboat.Damn,they don't serve alcohol.Wolfed down lots of meat and got quite full,having little appetite for the chocolate fondue to be served up later on.

Fun day indeed,going out with poly friends the weekend before school starts.Heh.

2009-04-17T10:02:00.000-07:00

I'm doing what i do best-thinking too much.It's obvious that i have a lot in mind,but i simply shrug it off with lame excuses.It'd serve me a lot good if i'd just shut my mind for a while.

2009-04-17T07:51:00.000-07:00

Just to inform fellow dear metalheads,this blog hasn't converted to a love blog totally,i know you jokers are laughing at the "lovey-dovey" eeden.fuck you.haha.

Review coming up this week,if not next week.It'll be Desecration and Sodomy,live rituals invoked by Black Witchery and Archgoat respectively,recorded in Germany,if memory serves right.

Till then,keep those evil flames burning!

Hailing the masses,
eedenthetormentor (started to take up my old nick again.)

2009-04-16T21:10:00.000-07:00

Kids. -.-

Merlion Outing.

2009-04-16T07:41:00.000-07:00

Went to meet Mel to pass her the Body Shop card,then went to meet her and her friend.Her friend is kinda friendly,though half the time they are talking about school,food,and more food,which clearly i have no knowledge of.Haha.I had headache again,so i didn't speak at all,making Mrs Meow a bit worried that i'm jealous.Hurhur.

So on the outing with her friend,Mrs Meow and i were quite sneaky,but her friend noticed us anyway,and kept re-emphasizing he was fine with it.However,given my character,i was kind of shy about it (heh.) and so behaved kinda secretive.

Then we took the train,supposedly going to Marina,where i realised we were going to Marina Bay instead of Marina Square.Her friend had to go,so left me and her to wander around to find my best friend,the Merlion.

Obviously,due to the lightning strike,Mr Merlion has a crack on its head.We didn't walk to the front to take a look.Sat at the steps,where its ass was facing us (crude i know haha).Had a fun time together,texting people and all.

Then some bloke called and we were like conferencing and all.Looks like another person has found out about us. :P

Sent her home,and again,i need lessons.Ma cherie,you know best.Hurhur.

Overall,i'm dead beat,but it was so worthwhile to see her again. :)))

Overwhelmed.

2009-04-14T21:52:00.000-07:00

Zomg ma cherie has just done something that i'd shower her with kisses right away.Thanks love. :)))

And what is outage huh?Maintenance?

2009-04-14T08:41:00.000-07:00

I dunno what's our status now,but at least now i am more affirmative that i love her (note the use of the word "love" instead of "like").

At least we talked it out,and all is all right now.So much for the despair i was in.

Let's work together to make this a good one eh ma cherie?

Note to Self.

2009-04-14T00:15:00.000-07:00

Stop expecting so much.

If only my demands will end.

P.S. No worries ma cherie i'm alright.Just having some inner thoughts.

Euphoria

2009-04-13T08:31:00.000-07:00

Went out with her today,to my most beloved spot,ok,not the exact spot (the floor),but yea,we had a wonderful time together.I was kinda demanding when i told her the destination we're going to today,as i loved that place the most,but damn,there are so many people buzzing around (by buzzing i mean looking on),got us kinda shy.

So we stayed on for quite awhile and then i sent her home.Feeling abit dizzy after the bus ride,but it was worthwhile quality time spent together.It was really a wonderful date today.Thanks ma cherie :)))

Now,let me see if you people can spoil my euphoric mood this week.Heh.

Happiness.

2009-04-12T06:19:00.001-07:00

Was the merlion for yesterday,due to over ambitiousness.Looks like the only thing that can't be stopped is my addiction.

And i did something that i should've done long ago.Feeling so good now.The other party seems fine with it,or so i think.Oh well,what's done is done!Don't spoil my mood yea?

Cradle of Filth-From Cradle to Enslave

2009-04-10T00:14:00.000-07:00

Release Year:1999
Genre:Extreme Metal

Review:

This EP kicks off with the self-titled track,From Cradle to Enslave.It opens with a slow,melodious synthesizers,set to kill as it builds on to a heavy chorus,leaving destruction and doom.Dani has delivered very good vocals on this track,moaning,croaking,and screaming at the right moments.The synthesizers has made a good impact as well,creating an eerie atmosphere,leaving you in hell.Yes,you know Hell looms when you hear Dani screaming "this is the end of everything".

It is then followed closely by the second track,Of Dark Blood and Fucking.It begins with a strong bassline,and starts off hard and heavy,all out to kill.My personal favorite of this EP,with the evil melodies,enhanced by the synthesizers that spell death in your face.Again,Dani sounds like a death angel resurrected.A fucking epic track in my opinion.Very typical Cradle of Filth track but it captures the Filth essence.It's no surprise dark clouds are forming as you hear this track.Armageddon may have come early.

After two great tracks,we have to suffer two utterly poor covers of Misfit's Death Comes Ripping and Anaththema's Sleepless.Clearly these two tracks aren't meant to be covered by extreme metal bands.A very reckless and lousy choice of songs,in my opinion.Recommendation:skip these two tracks.Death Comes Ripping allows me to see Dani's flaws in singing the faster tracks,without having to crack his voice.Sleepless,well,leaves you sleepless,with the extreme boredom,making you reconsider your choice in buying a CoF single the next time round.

Next is the instrumental Pervert's Church (From Cradle to Deprave).It includes some elements of electronica in it,making it like a pop-like version of From Cradle to Enslave's instrumental.Sarah's voice can be heard every now and then,with her shrilling in the background.Soprano is there,but it is more or less drowned out by the other sounds.

Finally,the EP draws to an end with Funeral in Carpathia (Be Quick or Be Dead Version).I'd rather they exclude this track in this EP.This song was so much better with the synthesizers at work and the gothic atmosphere.Instead,CoF has decided to remake this song into a heavy track,which loses the essence of this excellent track.Previously,certain parts are narrated by a girl whose voice was seductively lethal,and now it is replaced by Sarah singing over them.A lacklustre remake,in my opinion.

Overall,the only tracks worth listening to are the first two tracks and Pervert's Church,if you don't mind electronica.Recommended only for the die-hard Cradle fans.

Rating: 55%

Something extra.

2009-04-04T20:46:00.001-07:00

This blog is created for the sole purpose of my journey as a metalhead.If you want to understand my life journey,kindly proceed to www.death-pierce-me.blogspot.com

I'll be creating yet another blog to continue the life-journey entries,when i feel ready to.Currently i am too mentally unstable to write something decent.

As for reviews,i'm taking a short break to read through Encyclopedic Metallum to increase my knowledge in writing reviews.I need all the help i can get,so fellow reviewers,do provide me with professional advices and suggestions.

Till then,
Eeden.

Arch Enemy-Tyrants of the Rising Sun

2009-04-04T00:57:00.001-07:00

Fucking ace gig.

Here's the review:

ARCH ENEMY-TYRANTS OF THE RISING SUN,LIVE IN JAPAN

Genre:Melodic Death Metal

Year Released:2008

Set List:

Intro / Blood Is On Your Hands
Ravenous
Taking Back My Soul
Dead Eyes See No Future
Dark Insanity
The Day You Died
Christopher Solo
Silverwing
Night Falls Fast
Daniel Solo
Burning Angel
Michael Amott Solo (incl. "Intermezzo Liberté")
Dead Bury Their Dead
Vultures
Enemy Within
Snowbound
Shadows And Dust
Nemesis
We Will Rise
Fields Of Desolation / Outro
Enter the Machine (tape)

Review:

This gig kicks off with the track "Blood on Your Hands" from RotT (Rise of the Tyrants),which is now a ritual for AE to start a gig with this track,sirens blaring and all.As expected as the audience might get,nothing's better than a good 'ol headbangin' session with a heavy track.Thereafter,it builds up to Ravenous (from Wages of Sin),another fan favorite,and Taking Back My Soul (Doomsday Machine).

The set is based mostly on RotT if you've noticed,with 5 songs from this album.i'd rather AE to switch "The Day You Died" and "Night Falls Fast" for other songs from WoS (Wages of Sin) and AoR (Anthems of Rebellion),instead of trying to please the Jap crowd with "Jap-movie-inspired songs" (for your information,the song "The Day You Died" is inspired by some Anime show,which is made into a movie as well).The Jap crowd was very enthusiastic,often singing along to the solos,something we won't get to see for gigs taken place in the Western countries.The Japs seem to be more interested in the musicianship than the fancy stuff that bands do on stage.The crowd was most ecstatic when Nemesis was being played,cheering loudly than ever.This was one of the only moments that we get to see moshing taking place.

Not going to go through the entire set,so moving on to the musicianship...

As usual,the Amott brothers do not fail to deliver the crowd some good solos,with individual solo sessions during intervals.They delivered the songs well,almost exactly in sync with the studio versions,but the harmonics were a bit off sometimes.

Angela is fucking crazy,which is nothing new,with her getting the crowd to start chants of "hey" and showing off her trademark headbanging.Her vocals did its job well,growling,screeching and screaming with so much passion and accuracy.However,the flaw is that sometimes it can be straining to the ears when you hear her screeching into the microphone,especially when her voice sorta cracks.

Sharlee (the bassist) was rockin' out,but the bassline isn't that exactly creative and you can hardly hear the bass,except for tracks like Dead Bury Their Dead.Blame Century Media for making the focus more on Angela and the Amott brothers,nothing new,if you see the recent albums.

Of course,i saved Daniel Erlandson for the last,as in my opinion,he is the best performer for this gig.He never ceases to get the beats right and gets the crowd crazy.The only flaw is that the so-called drum solo wasn't that exactly inspiring.A great performance otherwise.A bit of a biased opinion here,as yours truly is interested more in drums.

Overall,the sounds and the quality of the video has been satisfactory,displayed in HD.

A recommendation for AE fans,and melodic death metal fans as well.So slide this album into your dvd player and get ready for some pure fucking metal. \m/

Rating: 85%

Just a small warning,i'm a poor reviewer.This is my first time reviewing a gig.

Tsjuder-Norwegian Apocalypse

2009-04-04T00:55:00.000-07:00

TSJUDER-NORWEGIAN APOCALYPSE

Genre: True Norwegian Black Metal

Year Released: 2006

Set List:

(Live in Rockfeller,Oslo)

01 Sodomizing The Lamb
02 Helvete
03 J-10
04 Unholy Paragon
05 Lord Of Terror
06 Ghoul
07 Mouth Of Madness
08 Sacrifice (Bathory Cover)
09 Primeval Fear
10 Beyond The Grave
11 Malignant Coronation
12 Eriphion Epistate

(Live in Sandnes)

* Morbid Lust
* Malignant Coronation
* Ephirion Epistates
* Born For Burning (Bathory Cover)
* Beyond The Grave

Review (Oslo):

Norwegian black metal giants Tsjuder has unleashed hell in Oslo,bringing about a great performance.

The gig starts with the track Sodmomizing the Lamb,where the images are all in black and white initially,slowly changing into the normal colored version,where green and red neon lights are on Nag and Draugluin,giving a ghastly feel to it,corpse painted or not.The black and white images appear every now and then,during the slow and heavy riffs,and cameras shaking during those hard and fast riffs.At other times,it would have flash images,showing images of Draugluin,Nag,or Anti-christian double-pedaling.

It is good to see that the camera and video crew has made an effort to make this special effects to enhance the atmosphere,but apparently,it can be rather dizzying sometimes.

Moving on to musicianship...

Nag,as usual,has delivered some good vocals,and headbangin' like no tomorrow.The bassline was audible (that,is,if you are putting on headphones,or blasting it loud on your stereo).The only flaw is that he does not engage the audience at all,with zero audience participation.There is only this instant when we see a guy headbangin' madly to the track "Sacrifice",and the crowd raising the Devil's Horns,other than that,nothing fucking else.The camera,too,neglects the audience,focusing more on the band's performance then the audience's reaction.

Draugluin was being a great back up vocalist and displayed good vocals most especially on Mouth of Madness,one of my personal favorites.However,the guitars were only satisfactory,nothing creative or special.It is like playing back the studio versions.

Anti-Christian was great,following the songs carefully,just that he was embarrassed a little when he dropped the drum stick during Erphion Epistate.No other major flaw other than that.

Overall,I would have given the gig a 80%,but the production took 10% away,so my rating is 70%.Decent performance,yet nothing out of the box.

Review (Sandnes):

The gig kicks off with Morbid Lust,with fast double pedaling from Anti-Christian,building on to a hard n' heavy track.Again,the video crew has decided to use the black and white approach,this time,with no rejections from my side,as the production was more raw and more cult-like.

Flaw with Morbid Lust?The track time was too long,so the crowd were not as enthusiastic as for other tracks.

For musicianship,see the review for Oslo,'cos i believe the performance was rather the same,with no surprises at all.

The only interesting feat was Vrangsinn (from Carpathian Forest) taking up bass during the track "Born For Burning".He came,headbanged,and conquered.Wasn't a very interesting track,but you have to give credit to Vrangsinn for keeping the crowd going.

Overall,I'd give this gig a rating of 75%,considering its short tracklist.

A New Creation.

2009-04-04T00:51:00.000-07:00

Salut!This blog is created to share with you fucking metalheads my metal collection.Every now and then i will post new purchases/old purchases here,writing reviews for each of them.

Shoutbox is coming up soon,for you to give your comments,so as for now,PM me at whoreofthedevil@hotmail.com to share with me your thoughts on my reviews.

So till then,enjoy your visit here!

Infernal hails,
Eeden.