This is the first time in my 18 years of living that i'm saying this "i'm defeated".
I have always been the confident person,no matter how major the setbacks that befall on me.Yes,i may whine a little sometimes,but still i'd have confidence that tomorrow will be better.
However,this time round,i simply have no confidence in myself.So many fears i have at the moment,and nothing is helping to situation at all.Quote an example:i don't even have the confidence to talk to you,even a casual chat,given the fear that you will still behave the way you do in the recent days-acting weird.Yes you do,just that i don't want to elaborate on it.
I'm kind of dreading Saturday,even though the little eeden in me is dying to see you.
I don't even know how to phrase the whole situation in my private blog,so people who can access that blog,don't expect to see a follow-up on this post.
